Have you been in my shoes: Standing at a crossroad, not the slightest idea on which fork to follow through?
Who am I kidding. I'm 99.9% sure you've been in this situation. SO how do you weigh the pros and cons of your available options? What if both are somewhat equalized? :(
Just felt like getting all the nonsense out of my head. It's probably best not to be so competitive? Not to always aim to be ahead of people although it's actually a good trait but .. you know, we win and lose. And I don't like the feeling of defeat.