A childhood friend and myself talked for a bit about job, career, earnings, opportunities and the near future yesterday night and ..
I don’t know how to continue despite having series of thoughts and questions in my mind since that night. I couldn’t pinpoint what the issue was, but what I do know is, I’m troubled.
Due to the very direct, predictable path chosen for me many, many years ago, I never had the opportunity to experience the different things in life. Don't get me wrong, I'm perfectly fine with my current job title and job scope, in fact, I never hesitated to let people know what I do but ..
I am just not contented at where I am right now.
Maybe I was destined to be someone else / to do something totally different from what I'm doing now, say like a stewardess (my dream ambition when I was 17) or to own a stall selling char koay teow wtf.
My point is, just by that 30-min chit chat with that friend made me realize, academics and books only help in giving one the stepping stone but without things that really matter, such as interpersonal skills and wisdom (being street smart), academics will only bring you this far. I was brought up with a conventional mindset – that academic excellence guarantees a promising future, and that’s the way to go in life. Sure, I did my part and scored. My parents were pleased with me, heck even I was extremely pleased with myself. Then what? Get stuck with a 10-year bond, with not much options to choose from? To be in the office every single weekday from 9-5?
I wished I had been more exposed to the outside world. I guess that’s the only regret I have right now. Looking back, my parents never condoned me hanging out with that friend during our schooling days, reason being, he and his group of friends weren’t the studious, hardworking nerds so they were afraid I would get influenced by them. I understand their concern and I totally see where they’re coming from but keeping me away from all the dangers and challenges didn’t help at all. Look at me, if I were to be dumped on the streets all by myself, I wouldn’t last a week.
That friend didn’t excel in his studies. He wasn’t enrolled into a prestigious university, nor did he secure a high-paying job the moment he graduated. But right now, his basic’s almost double of what I’m getting every month (I have yet to take his commissions into account). And the most important part was, he had that job satisfaction despite having to slog on weekends.
I’m still pondering on what I should do next.
Maybe I should just snipe a rich dude, divorced him and settle for that 50% :D